” i used to think that I had to fish for trout to be happy. Now, I feel that I have to be happy to fish for trout”…. Todd Harper, on a dog walk yesterday morning.
So, my body is tired again. I am waking up at 5:30, because it is light out, and I want to. I have not been to school all spring. It is my favorite weather: sunny/cloudy, mid 60’s, calm morning. I can see the trees and clouds out of my windows. Birds still sing. While I am slightly melancholic that spring has turned to summer here in the north, these are the days I have been dreaming of. I am becoming healed. While I would like to fish for trout on the Kinnickinnic today, I don’t have to. I am feeling peace watching the clouds race by, right here.
Chanting to the Gohonzon this morning, I reflected with gratitude on all the people who are helping me heal: I vow to follow Daisaku Ikeda’s words : “It’s important not to live aimlessly, lacking in any clear purpose. I therefore say to you ” dig beneath your feet, there you will find a spring, and LIve in a way that is true to yourself.” I vow to manifest absolute happiness where I am, whatever I do. And, I will play piano, listen to Erik Satie, work the garden, clean, and encourage others. And sit down in the green chair, with my dog in my lap.